Now that he's pretty sure he has a home and belongs somewhere-- I'd say a future? He has a second chance at something-- maybe a third chance now, technically. He wants to make something of it this time. He wants to build something that will last, and something that he'll put his heart into. Having an environment like the Lost Light where he feels he has a home-- people that love him-- it helps this desire and the desire to make them proud of him. He wants to be the person that they see in him.
Believe in the me that believes in you, Tailgate!
if Skystalker could have his way and change something about the Lost Light, what would it be?
No more factions.
It's one of the things that causes the most strife amongst the crew.
They should all be on the Lost Light as Cybertronians, above all else. He knows this quest isn't going to end well, if at all, unless people start realizing that they're all in this together whether they like it or not. It's one big reason he is patient with stuff like Quicksight's ideals and the tentativeness of neutrals, even the passion of someone like Getaway.
Further division only serves a future of endless lines drawn in the sand.
How is Tailgate dealing with resuming his post post-Devisiun? How is he feeling about his part in the command crew generally?
What's the hardest part of being on the Lost Light for Skystalker?
Talk to me about Skystalker/Rodimus.
He's-- dealing. He's still nervous about it, still wondering if this was the right decision-- but the fact that they not only came for him but Command still wanted him in the role of Security Chief? It means so much on both an emotional and practical level. I think if they hadn't agreed he should stay, he would have had much different feelings over it. Before Devisiun, he was even more split over it-- if they hadn't come to Tailgate after he returned he would not have put up much of a fight when it came to giving it up. He probably would have deferred back to command on a replacement and gone back to whatever he was doing before-- likely maintenance or logistics or what not.
As for his part in the command crew, it's really obvious that he still doesn't quite feel like he fits-- I try to make it clear when he meets with the others, or when they have meetings for the command crew. He doesn't quite step up as he might otherwise, and sometimes he just lets others speak over him. He's still getting used to it.
The hardest part about being on the Lost Light? That's a tough one. Maybe being around all of these people who have been in wartime for so long that they have trouble finding a new ground. It isn't that he doesn't understand what they fought for-- or that they are having these difficulties assimilating. Generally speaking. everyone just has these mindsets and experiences that are so drastically different from his own that sometimes there is too much of a dissonance. If it's not the hardest part, it's absolutely one of the top three. Even peaceful people that he knows now have had themselves adjusted emotionally by wartime involvement. He himself has been influenced by the war, even without taking part in it personally. It's hard to relate to things like killing his way through a problem, as so many others are so likely to do. This issue isn't even solely factions, either, which is the big kicker. Everyone has just been so formed by the long war that finding real peace is something he knows for a fact is going to be a miracle. Perhaps this is one reason he's here at all-- it's going to be a long effort, and he wants to help it there-- finding the Knights? Well, he knows if they exist, maybe they'll see things the same way as him.
Skystalker and Rodimus, huh? Any specific questions in mind there? I will happily answer any specifics.
Tez had a question where she provided an answer to their origins, and their origins have been a huge part of them for me. Like foster brothers. Unbound by things like blood, but bound instead by a sort of invisible covenant.
I like to think that when things get sticky as hell, they might each know the other will be there even without asking. The kind of thing where distance and time happens, but you see this person again and it's almost like you can pick up right where you left off when it comes to how you interact? There are experiences and decisions that divide you, but even despite that there's going to be a lingering connection. Old bridges aren't burnt bridges, they just need the repairs.
Nyon's Lost Boys! It's hard to forget that kind of a bond. Even harder to see past it. Skystalker sure isn't able to. He'll always see Rodimus as Hot Rod. I make it a point to have him call Rodimus by 'Rod' for a reason, you can see. He can't quite let go of that innocence between the two of them that he knew so well, and I try to make that show through in how they interact.
Is there anything positive Skystalker took away from his time as a slave?
While his time as a slave had him learn so many things that he may not have otherwise, the most positive thing to have come out of it all has to be his love for and skill with music.
He was first taught strings by his first master-- and while in the beginning it was just one more thing to resent, he started to find some peace in the consistency of practicing, listening, learning, playing on his own. It became a solid thing where the rest wasn't. The structure of music was something that he could look at and see something to hold firmly onto.
After he began understanding music more and finding it to be a rooting influence, it increasingly became a way to escape what his world was outside of the strings. He learned to write and play, and instruments were something that he could hold in his hands, control, make something beautiful in a chaotic life that didn't have much beauty to spare.
Always the music.
In short terms? He was afraid of joining it. He didn't want to die. He didn't want to be used. He was scared, and he knows his cowardice. He thinks that he owns it. He does not.
In a bit of a longer explanation, yes, he sure had chances to turn to the nearest bot or con encampment in the years before he was captured and enslaved. I'd liken him to the average draft dodger, however. He was scared of the war, and he'd already escaped by the skin of his teeth once before when he ran, battered and hopeless, from Cybertron when Nyon fell. He was scared to go back to a war, scared to be used and likely to die for it. He wanted to help, but his willpower was so lacking that it couldn't win out over his lack of courage. So he hid and ran when the war would catch up to him, pure and simple. He knew he was being a coward, and even now on the Lost Light he is trying to make up for it somehow. Sometimes that means stupid decisions. Skystalker coming to terms with the fact he avoided the fight is one thing that I hope to use in developing him further.
When he was captured and enslaved, that was clearly one reason for him to not have joined-- for such a long time he just never had the choice, and he was even owned at times by Cybertronians and DEcepticons-- and those eras would make absolutely sure that he would never have the boldness or courage to step up with anyone, even the Autobots.
I think that if the Autobots had found him amidst the war, things would be different. That someone could have convinced him that he would have a place with them-- that he'd be able to protect himself, and others, and they would have his back too. Such a large part of his issues are the uncertainty and fear that comes with losing people that you'd protect and they'd look after you in turn. After he was pulled out of Nyon by the senate, that definitely changed-- even after he went back there, it wasn't the same. He had that fear instilled in him and was convinced that he could only rely on himself for his own safety.
I think if he'd been found and reassured during the war, he'd have made a place in it with the rest-- and I definitely think he'd be an Autobot, but if it had been early on, he could have been a Con too. Unlike Rodimus, who was on the fence so precariously-- Skystalker lacked Rod's willpower to a fault. And it absolutely has influenced the rest of his life.
[To all alts] Frag/Bond/Behead
Tailgate: - Nautica - Getaway - Minimus
Skystalker: - Deluge - Drift - Quicksight
How does it feel to have gotten a new lease on life through overcoming cybercrosis?
It feels good. Really good. I've never personally been in life-threatening danger due to my health, but I've been around so many people who have defeated things like cancer, and those that have overcome the difficulties of disease in general. It takes a lot of courage to be able to face it, even in a way that Tailgate did.
He has a chance to do the things he thought he was going to miss. A chance to make a difference for real. Before, he was only equal to months old. Those six million years alone did nothing for his personal growth, and just when he was finally doing just that, the disease hit him hard.
But they saved him. Cyclonus saved him-- even if it was because he was keeping his promises, that was what happened.
It's a bit like having a bucket list, and not being able to do it-- and suddenly it doesn't matter anymore. Now he has time for his list, so to speak. He wants to make this one count.
I notice that poses of Skystalker are often very descriptive of his shape, lighting, pose, facial expressions. To me, those aspects are more prominent than in Tailgate's. Do you see it that way? If so, why?
It's definitely intentional! At first it was because as an OC without any sketches done, and so I relied solely on the @desc I wrote and the ways I described him in scenes and the ways he moved when he interacted with others. With Tailgate it was different-- we all knew Tailgate, and had so little trouble with envisioning him.
Over time I've tried to do some of the same things when I play Tailgate, but I definitely make more of an effort hen it comes to Skystalker's visuals. Part of it is still rooted in my need to create a mind's eye view of Sky, but now that some art is out there it has changed to something generated by the way he is seen. He's attractive even on an aesthetic level, and though sometimes this can be defaulted to a running gag, I honestly try to work it into the way I write about him.
His shape, lighting, gestures, features-- they are all meant to draw the eye, and I play to that strength. He's lovely to look at, and lovely to watch-- even for those that see things primarily on an objective level. Like a tiger or a well-designed car. :p His various aspects can be anywhere from subtle to dramatic, and I do mean to appeal to as many senses as I can. I do my best to put something in there for anyone to find, and it just so happens that the easiest parts are also the most physical.
Skystalker, I'm just sayin, but you could get a rebuild to be less attractive.
What can Tailgate not forgive?
Skystalker's looks are a part of him now! SORRY BRO. He's keeping his beautiful self.
I am not sure, actually. Tailgate has such a big, open heart that it's difficult for me to think of something that isn't, say, actively murdering people. He's come around to the idea that war came with death-- but if he ran into someone like Megatron or Overlord or Tarn again, he really can't equate what they've done with righteousness. That said, even though his perceptions of people are really stark-- I feel like he could still have some room to spare for someone like MEgs or Tarn, but not Overlord. Overlord killed his friends. His family. It was personal-- even if he showed regret, it wouldn't be something he could do. With someone like Megs I can kind of parallel the comics here-- in those Teeg was willing to take him down at first, and later he was even determined to /help/ him change, even if it meant sneaking up on him while he was sleeping. He truly believed that someone like that could be saved. I think that makes up a big part of how he can forgive the actions of others in the ways he does. Can they be saved? Can things be made right again? Are they worth forgiving? Are they truly remorseful? Those are the kinds of questions he asks himself.
Someone like Drift, whose life was so misguided and led by more powerful bots-- he may not be able to forgive the killing, but he can recognize that Drift is no longer Deadlock. That it was Deadlock who killed, and Drift is trying so hard to atone for what he's done. He is worth forgiving. Someone like Overlord, though? Who kills for fun? Makes it personal? Keeps killing? Has no remorse or idea of honor? Refuses to change? He can't forgive something like that. It might be a little selfish for him to only be able to forgive someone who has become good, but that's how it is. If you can ask any more specific questions in terms of what can be forgiven, go ahead.
Skystalker sure has a lot of hobbies, but which one or two are his favorites?
For both: Opinions on all this leftover animosity/squabbling between the Bots and Cons?
Tailgate wishes people would just learn to work together already. It would make his job so much easier! He knows that hoping they disappear isn't going to make things work. So he tries to be proactive about it by doing things like taking on responsible Decepticons with security, and making a point to know and be friends with those that can put up with him. It's the least he can do to try and mediate the lingering stuff.
Sky is more the type to wish it didn't exist and doesn't take an active role in smoothing it down. He takes friends where he can get them, which definitely includes Quicksight. When it comes to interacting with folks he tends to take them as they are on a personal level, and does his best not to think about which faction they were in. He can see that it only brings discord and discontent when it comes up-- even in a peaceful setting. Those peaceful settings get turned upside down once the faction claws come out, and he is simply tired of dealing with it.
Does Skystalker have anything he takes pride in? I ask for no reason in particular. >_>
He is proud that he is a survivor, if that qualifies. He is not proud of what he's done to survive-- but he has survived, right?
On a less solemn note he is also proud of what he's been able to accomplish despite his early life and later tribulations, and all the moving around he's had to do. He still managed to make something of himself, in a manner of speaking.
I hope that Blast Off can help him be proud of Himself now too, rather than just the fact that he is a survivor. He is proud of himself to a degree-- Skystalker takes more pride in his abilities than he does in himself. I'm not sure how that works in finer details, but I feel as if that is the best way to describe it? Though he's got the looks and the brains, he's very self-conscious but also self-aware when it all boils down. Being around the Lost Light has helped this somewhat, though much of the time it still stands. Drinking helps him loosen up of course. I hope that keeping some good friends and maybe finding others that can relate to him in some way could help more.
Teegs, what's a guy gotta do to get back in your good graces? Your disappoint hurts, there must be a way to get back your trust.
Time and patience and making a good example of yourself! Tailgate likes to see action, not just words. Skystalker is kind of the opposite. But when it comes to making Tailgate's good graces come back, it takes a bit of effort.
In Vortex's case, involving himself in things such as the body shop and actively participating in positive ways(the contest, the code quiz class, etc) are instances that will help his cause. Being a positive presence is a very big thing for Tailgate, I feel-- especially finding ways to help people/make others feel good about themselves.